Just a Thought...

Hello!

Warning: Long entry.

Just now I saw one of my friend posted about she didn't get it how people at her age wants to get married, on her Facebook.

Taken from: Here

I remember that I was so eager about marrying someone, the kind of tomorrow can do. I had that thought when I was... If I remember, 17. I was a sophomore in high school and I read comic, the mother had her when she was 16... I was... WOW. I mean, I want to be not too old when I have my child. I want to be able to play with my grandchildren.

My mom used to told me about her friend who acted and dressed as if she's my age. Hot pants, super tight tank top, large hoop earrings, boots... It will look good if she's good-looking, or at least lean. But she's... duh.

Hidden message: Don't get married too young because you won't have time to enjoy your youth and you will end up like that.

Mom! What if it's only your friend who was like that?

But I quite understand that my mom wants me to live my youth so that later I be a mature adult without having to act like I'm an over-age teenager when I take my child to school. If I act and dress like that, I will not just embarrass myself—that I can take—but I will embarrass my child as well.

Society = Full of gossip.

That is one of some common knowledge.

Then when I was 19 I changed 180°. I told my mom that I won't get married, so no grandchild from me, I will live alone and die without child/husband to mourn for me.

She was shocked and tried to convince me that I somehow need to get married so then I will have others to take care of me when I turn to an old grumpy woman. Oops. Sorry grandmas out there! Didn't mean to insult you.  I was like, "It's my life, I will die alone if that's what I want." And she was like, "Just telling you that it won't be that nice." HMP. That's what you get from always telling me to just focus on your studies.

And then now that I am 22 and of legal age to get married.

Well, not that I have someone to get married with! *sobs*

I thought like, "Ah, I want to have a child that looks like me and have my personality. I don't really care if it's a boy or a girl."

I CHANGED MY MIND!

If I really have a child that have my personality... I think I will jump off my flat balcony.

What?

I'm a total rule breaker. I fought with other kids. I have a mouth of a sailor. And other bad things I won't reveal here because it's too much, believe me it is.

If my child has my personality, I can guess that I will be called straight to the headmaster/headmistress office almost everyday for a complete 14 years. Kindergarten, junior school, middle school, high school. Worst, I can think I will have to move my child to other school after getting warned about being expelled. Schools might it be.

As a student I never cheated, skipped class, or other bad doings that violate the education rules. What I violated was... well, behaviour rules. My headmaster and headmistress from junior school to high school knew my mom well enough.

I think this one is quite funny, despite what I did was not good.

This happened when I was in grade 8. I used to not wear my uniform tie, untucked my uniform shirt and left the two first buttons unbuttoned, and unbutton my vest.  Well I went to private school therefore our uniform was different and more complicated than the public school, which I dislike. And then my headmaster caught me breaking the rules, he was standing on the first floor and I was on ground floor, that hawk eyes of his. What did he do? He chased me, running from first floor to ground floor and continued chasing me while blowing his whistle... which I found quite funny. I thought of that as an afternoon exercise. I kept running until I accidentally slipped over a puddle of cendol that my friend spilled and fell laying on the floor on my back. I haven't graced with sailor mouth back then. Yeah that's how I got my lunch time exchanged with a 30-minute session of nagging.

And this one happened when I was in grade 7. I was bored after school and didn't go straight home. I strolled around the school ground, that's when I found a lonely trolley. I was bored and there's a trolley, I can have some fun with it. I took it and rode it like it was a skateboard. Until... I rode too fast and bumped to fire extinguisher containers. Those containers were made of glass. Yeah as you can guess, I broke one container and cracked one (or more). I was like... okay, let's leave it be.

I'm sure I was a mean ass menace. Not a school delinquent tho.

See? If I ended up having a child whom personality will be like mine... IT MUST BE KARMA! Lord, have your mercy on me.

I don't know and wouldn't know how hard my parents raised me.

I'm not saying they have failed in raising me. If I ever hear someone spouting that nonsense, I swear a good whack in the head using my roaring chainsaw would be awarded to one who said that, no matter who you are or who your parents are. I'm unstoppable, even lots of nagging and punishment can't stop me. So I take that my parents have stopped trying to punish me from years ago.

My parents raised me to be a good girl. They have disciplined me more than enough. It's just that I'm sick of it and decided to be a rebel. Thank God it's only me who turned out to be the rebel of the family.

Maybe if I have a child/children I will raise them in a different way. I will raise them in fun way but I will be strict if it's needed.

My personality is different from my mom, she's sweet while I'm thousand miles away from it. Of course I will take the different way in raising child.

If I have the groom-to-be I will drag him with me to the nearest church and marry him. Keyword: If I have.

Oh wait, here's the 'fun'.

If I want to have a child, I have to get married. Well, I'm not one who will do ONS and give birth to an illegitimate child. I want my child have a father. I didn't say about my child having a father until he/she grows up.

First off, I don't really care about the long last marriage. I care about it, but it's not my life goal. Wait until my mother hears about this, she will flip out.

Others may have either to be a billionaire or to go around the world or to conquer the world (such a life goal) or maybe to immigrate to Mars or whatsoever. But mine is simple, to have a child/children. Grandchild/grandchildren will be the minor life goal.

I will get married, have a child or two, if the marriage can last long it will be better but if it can't then I don't think I will really have problems.

Sure my child/children will be victim of broken family. But I will try to play the role of a father lest the worst happens.

I want to see how my child turns out!

I tried to morph my face with... well artist since I don't have groom-to-be candidate, and it turned out like...

The boys

The girls

And I am 22 right now.

Ciao,
Bern