Holiday is Over

Yo!

Holiday is over. Tomorrow I'll have to go to class again. This is so not happening *pulls hair* but it has to happen oTL

I will tell a story about the previous me and the current me.

The previous me was someone who takes everything seriously, takes everything to heart. Whenever I play, I play with feeling, with my all. I was someone who kind to everyone, yeah I'm not shitting or plain bluffing. I was very welcoming and cheerful. I was someone who was forgiving. I was someone who has a childlike aura.

The current me is someone who doesn't take anything to heart, more like.... I feel like I don't have to. Whenever I play, it's just all game, no need to be so serious about it. Game is just for fun. I'm someone who's not kind to just anyone, I'm picky. I'm now cold to new people and just real cold. Fuck with forgiving. Now I am someone who has the dark heavy arrogant aura.

I don't feel good about this. I somehow want to go back to the previous me who I think is better.

But my past is what my current self made of.

Betrayal. Being used. Ignored.

I'm tired of being kind to people if they're just gonna use me, betray me and then ignore me.

I like those who tell my fault to my face than those who're bitching behind my back. Oh come on, tell it to my face I dare you. Because I will do the same, but I don't feel anything wrong with you, that's why I don't tell you.

The current me think like..........

Life is complicated. Don't think too hard, don't take every single thing to heart, just take it easy.

Life is already hard, don't make it even harder.

Not a very good entry but, this is how I really feel.

I hope I can change.

Night!