Window Shopping

Hello!

I was thinking about getting my hair back to blonde. And dip the bottom of the hair to red color, I've imagined it haha :) But somehow I'm afraid that if I bleached my hair again, I will harm my hair. I'm now still repairing my hair and don't plan to re-harm it oTL re-harm? Whatever, you know what I mean.

So......... I was thinking about buying a wig and dye it as what I want.

I want it to come in this color.

I want it to come in this color so that I can dip it in red or another.

But what surprised me was............ when I asked to the seller, she said that I can't dye the wig. Because it's not 100% human hair. If I want to dye it, I have to buy the one that 100% made from human hair, which comes in price about $300 or more.

As if I shit gold.

But then I said to the seller that I will buy the wig when platinum blonde color available in Indonesia, because now it's not available yet. She said she'll inform me when it's available :)

Ciao,
Bern

Holiday is Over

Yo!

Holiday is over. Tomorrow I'll have to go to class again. This is so not happening *pulls hair* but it has to happen oTL

I will tell a story about the previous me and the current me.

The previous me was someone who takes everything seriously, takes everything to heart. Whenever I play, I play with feeling, with my all. I was someone who kind to everyone, yeah I'm not shitting or plain bluffing. I was very welcoming and cheerful. I was someone who was forgiving. I was someone who has a childlike aura.

The current me is someone who doesn't take anything to heart, more like.... I feel like I don't have to. Whenever I play, it's just all game, no need to be so serious about it. Game is just for fun. I'm someone who's not kind to just anyone, I'm picky. I'm now cold to new people and just real cold. Fuck with forgiving. Now I am someone who has the dark heavy arrogant aura.

I don't feel good about this. I somehow want to go back to the previous me who I think is better.

But my past is what my current self made of.

Betrayal. Being used. Ignored.

I'm tired of being kind to people if they're just gonna use me, betray me and then ignore me.

I like those who tell my fault to my face than those who're bitching behind my back. Oh come on, tell it to my face I dare you. Because I will do the same, but I don't feel anything wrong with you, that's why I don't tell you.

The current me think like..........

Life is complicated. Don't think too hard, don't take every single thing to heart, just take it easy.

Life is already hard, don't make it even harder.

Not a very good entry but, this is how I really feel.

I hope I can change.

Night!

Love Quotes My Friend Gave To Me

Just like the title, my friend gave me love quotes. She was like sprinkling salt to my opened wounds. But I like her quotes because those were so right, although I was like being stabbed oTL

No love can hurt as much as the love that can never be and no thought can hurt as much as the thought of a love that could have been.

You cannot teach what you don’t know. You cannot give what you don’t have. You cannot forgive what you can’t forget. But you can love even if you’re not being loved back.

Sometimes you think when they say that it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. Who can say what's better when your heart becomes the cost?

There will come a time when we have to stop loving someone not because that person started hating us but because we found out that they’d be happier if we let them go.

It’s hard to pretend you love someone when you don’t. But it’s harder to pretend you don’t love someone when you really do.

It is sad to be with someone you think you love only to realise later on that your heart still belongs and will always long for the person you left behind.

Must you be so right?!

It hurts.

Like a Coach

Hello!

Today I went skating with my brother and cousins. I was taken too because I was the only one who can skate well in the family at that time, well my sister can't come due to meeting. So yeah, I was a one day coach for free, well I got to skate for free too! I love it :P

I kind of regret for being so lazy to exercise because........ it hurts my right arm muscle. Why? Well......

My cousins can't skate, skate level: zero.

They had to hold on to me and put all their weight on my right arm, because they were so afraid to fall. That's normal for beginner, because I was like that too. Only the different, I was a small skinny kid and the one who taught me to skate was my older cousin who was far older than me and can handle my weight. Now, I handle people who are heavier than me *laughs*

When I was teaching my cousin, a legal couch (LOL legal couch?! Yeah, I was illegal!) came to me and said, "You can't walk hand-in-hand like that, it's dangerous!" He kinda scolded me. So I replied, "I'm coaching her, she's a beginner", and that shut him up and he left us too :)

And that day was the very first time I've ever shouted at/scolded a stranger in public. She was a beginner but she tried to skate in speed, I was skating slowly with my cousin hand-in-hand, teaching her the easy and safe way to skate and to stop moving. She bumped into me....... with her speed, which made me stumbled and almost fell on my cousin. That was the real danger -_- where's the legal coach now! Reprimand her! And in reflect I shouted at her, "HEY!!!!" and she ran away....... Grrr. Good thing I didn't fall on my cousin.

She played too much, she played for 4 hours, and she hurt her ankles. Worse.... she fell down and can't move. I had to drag her on her knees out of the rink :( I feel sorry for her.

Hope you've recovered, Mich!

Night!

Having Fun Online!

Hello!

As you know, I'm on holiday. And I feel bored about it, this is somehow weird. When I'm on school days I want my holiday back, when I'm on holiday I want my school days back. Damn, this is complicated!

Oh well, I took some quizzes. Here....

Here is the analysis (click the title to take the quiz):

The Real You

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm. << I think it's because of my scary aura oTL
4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What's Your Personality Love Style?

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

oTL Yes my standards are so high that I dump guys before they can make more move without hesitation.

What Type of Personality Do You Have?

Kind and Gentle

Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.

Who is Your Dream Guy?

He is wild and adventurous. His path is often against the world. He does what he wants when he feels like. His type of girl is quite like him, independent and wise. If you love freedom and willing to risk, go for this guy.

Yeah and my mom will definitely say no about this guy, she wants me to get someone like robot. With rules and yeah oTL

Bern

Wi-Fi Installation... DONE!

Hello!

Today, finally I can use my wi-fi! Can I open my confetti and serve a glass of champagne for myself to celebrate it?!

No exaggeration used. I've called the ISP customer service to re-schedule the wi-fi installation for about 6 times and yes their technicians came. One, two, three, four, five and six. They can't install the wi-fi! Worse, the fourth technicians brought my LAN cable home, what?! He thought I provide the cable for free?! I lent him my LAN cable just in case the original LAN cable was too short to reach the router from my computer. I called the customer service to get my LAN cable back, and yes they gave it back. But what?! It's not my cable, they gave me the short cable. What the.... Mine was at least 2 meters long and they gave me one less than 1 meter long? Oh no, I'm not really happy about this.

Okay, calm down.

I can finally use internet 24/7...... oops, my parents won't be happy. Don't tell them!

I watched 1 hour video online without buffering! I love that speed! Subscribe to firstmedia to get the fast internet with low price!

Wow! After all the problems I got I still manage to advertise them! How nice of me~ LOL Just kidding. But really, their speed is so lovely! And I don't recall getting my speed slowed because I've used all the quota, what is quota?

Night!

Get to Know Me!

Stole this from my friend's blog *nods*

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? YES!
2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress? Short party dress, it's easier to move with. I don't wear big poofy dress, in fear that I might get myself tripped and oh the embarrassment!
3. Are diamonds a girl's best friend? YEAAA!!
4. Is your hair up or down today? Down.......
5. Do you straighten your hair? No, I'm way too lazy to take care of it.
6. Favorite mascara? I never applied mascara so I'll just pass.
7. Do you get your nails done? Got no chance to do that for weeks, busy with exams oTL
8. Small or large purses? For everyday use, small.
9. Jeans or sweats? Jeans!
10. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable?  No, I won't suffer in the name of fashion or anything -_-
11. Do you text message a lot? No, but instead I chat a lot!
12. Whats your favorite color? Red, Black, and Gold.
13. Heels or flats? SNEAKERS!
14. Would you ever leave the house without makeup on? I do it every fucking day!
15. Walmart or Target? Walmart.
16. Do you think lip gloss is the best! Lipgloss? It's so yucky.
17. Do you own any big sunglasses? No O_O it'll look weird on me, I think.
18. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Gimme 20 minutes and I'm ready to go! :D
19. Gold or silver? Gold.
20. Do you like to wear dresses? Hell to the no way!
21. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy? No.
22. Do you like to hold hands? No.
23. What do you notice when you first meet a guy? Their eyes. I like guys with bright eyes ^_^
24. Do you like making eye contact? Yes. When I talk with someone, I always make eye contact.
25. Would you kill for chocolate? ........ the heck?
26. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping? 8!
27. Do you yell a lot? No. Oh wait, it depend on my mood.
28. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work? You crazy? No.
29. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy? No. I dress in what I like, if they don't like me in what I wear, I don't really give a damn.
30. What makeup could you not live without? Nothing.
31. Do you fall in love easily? No. But I fall out of love easily.
32. Do you have cramps? No.

You guys can do it too :D It's somehow good to kill time *laughs*

Bern

Happy New Year!

Ssup!


First of all,

Happy New Year 2013

and I may be late about this :(

Merry Christmas!

This year, we celebrated the new year in the car, all thanks to traffic jam. We planned to watch firework @ Living World, but on our way to Living World, just about 200 meters till we reach the place....... oh well traffic jam. We ended up watching the firework in car, but then we decided to watch it on the road because others did that too!

New experience ;) but no, we are not really happy about it because years years before, we celebrated new years in grandma's place and then we celebrated my uncle's birthday. His birthday is on January 1st! And no surgery done *_* wow.

Bern