Screw Pride!

Hoo....... Halo!

Screw pride.

Yeah. Screw that -_-

I've just done something unthinkable by me -> Apologize after being humiliated in front of publicㅡclass. Seriously that's the most unthinkable thing I've ever done.

Humiliated? How so?

Okay so....

It was the day of my group presentation. Everything went well until we reached Q session, where audience can bombard us with tons of question. Actually those questions were not that hard, just.... our lecturer kept getting in the middle of our discussion =_= mood 100% ruined.

Then problem came. When I can't hold my tongue back from talking back. Ei -_- I should have known about that coming!

Note to self: Never volunteer myself to be a spokesperson. 

I was explaining something to that audience who shot us a question but then Brengki cut me and said my answer is somehow wrong. Then he explained blablabla yada yada yada miaw.... and silenced. I thought he's already finished with his nonsensical speech. I spilled my opinion and experience. Then Brengki cut me again by saying...

Are you arguing with me? You should have listened to a Pro first!

Pro my ass.

As if not satisfied, he began to complain about our group presentation by saying that we were sleepy, not concentrated, and other shit. Then he told our group to back to our seat.

Still not satisfied, that freak started to complained more about how I behaved. Yeah, only me. He had a sudden grudge against me. Why? I gave him fact. He was a stick-to-textbook human being, the most.

He said I'm an ill-mannered girl.

Mister, not all the things happen in our life based on what's written in books. No. Even rules change. What's so hard about doing things against the book? As if you'll die right away.

I was about to explode. Thank God the bell rang!

Then Jean (she was in the same group with me) said that I have to apologize, because she was afraid that he won't let us pass the subject.

I was so mad to think about it. Screw apologize, he should thank his ass that I didn't throw rock at him for that humiliating games he brought.

But then at home I re-think about it.... she was right. I should apologize because I care for my friends' score. I could care less about my score because part of it was my fault and another part was Brengki's. Tsk.

You know what was that that made me think about apologizing for my behavior?

Guilt.

Back then when I was an 11 grader, one teacher asked me to tell my story about schooling in that school. I didn't want to, I didn't even have a good thing about that school (friends are not included). But she kept on telling me to do that. I shot her a glare, but still did what she told me to do, which I did. She was not satisfied with my story, then I snapped at her. She was taken aback, but decided to let it slide.

I didn't apologize because I was so immature to think that part of it was my fault.

Then she (teach) had to leave the school because her teaching period has reached the end.

What's bad is.....

Two years later, after I graduated from school, she made it a headline. Not because she achieved a gold medal in English competition (she was my English teacher), but because she was a victim of assassination begins with robbery.

Yeah, she's gone.

I had to confirm about that news to a trusted source which he sadly said, it was really her.

..........................

I haven't even apologized!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Regret came more and more. Even until now.

Although I believe that she has forgiven me even before I apologized, yeah she had that kind personality.


So yeah, I don't want to hold more regret.

Not that I hoped Brengki got in same scene with her.

I apologized to him. My words of apologize worth more than A+. I threw my pride okay >_>


     Lesson learnt:

1. No snapping.
2. No talk-back-ing.
3. Must listen to the pro *insert scoff here*
4. Lower my arrogance level.
5. No arguing with the fag >_> it will cost my (plus friends') score.

- Other than a walking swag, I'm more like a walking arrogance.

Ciao,

Bern